gaddamit. its intro to law one more time again! haha. huhu. nakakatawang nakakaiyak. hay. sana ito na talaga yung cases namin. sana di na magbago kasi ang dami ko ng naprint! naubos na ink at papel ko di ba. sana pumasa na kami. sana okey recit namin.

LORD dami ko ba request? sana Lord this time pagbigyan niyo na kami. d.r can give us all the hell he wants pero we will always seek heaven in You.

i will start reading today po =)

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enrollment namin nung sat. tagal as usual. masaya naman ang reunion naming lahat. all except ate ger. hay. hay merge na ang two blocks how sad =(

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punta kami sm mla. chikahan sa mcdo. tawa kami ng  tawa at namiss ko company nila do, sh, mi. may free toy pa kami. tas nagpunit-punit sila ng box ng french fries para gawing artwork haha.

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punta abs after. freaky naman dami checkpoints. overnight with ka. aral aral ever. andun si kuya er. ang labo nga niya eh. i didn’t understand a thing he’s saying. tapos sabi niya kung ilan taon nako at kung gusto ko na daw ba magpakasal? huh? ang kati ng ulo ko nung gabi nakakahiya! scalp itch attack! dun na kami natulog. nung umaga bfast, tumabi smin si kuya je. hm…i sense something fishy! tinext pa sha na masiba kumain hehe.

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we saw a huge rat sa office! kadiri.

yun lang. uwi nung umaga, took a bath, slept. Zzzzs…

Lord, I leave it all up to You.

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cr left today. nakakalungkot din. sabi ko kung nacheck ba bags niya. evil noh. nalulungkot ako pero i just can’t get myself to trust her. talaga.

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do and i are raning about school and tulungan issues. iba talaga ang pl versus ate. its not just the money eh. or the prestige. its the whole system you’re trying to belong to. hay. make do with what we have na lang siguro.

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BE THE CHANGE WE WANT TO SEE IN OUR SCHOOL. bow.

gaddamit. its intro to law one more time again! haha. huhu. nakakatawang nakakaiyak. hay. sana ito na talaga yung cases namin. sana di na magbago kasi ang dami ko ng naprint! naubos na ink at papel ko di ba. sana pumasa na kami. sana okey recit namin.

LORD dami ko ba request? sana Lord this time pagbigyan niyo na kami. d.r can give us all the hell he wants pero we will always seek heaven in You.

i will start reading today po =)

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enrollment namin nung sat. tagal as usual. masaya naman ang reunion naming lahat. all except ate ger. hay. hay merge na ang two blocks how sad =(

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punta kami sm mla. chikahan sa mcdo. tawa kami ng  tawa at namiss ko company nila do, sh, mi. may free toy pa kami. tas nagpunit-punit sila ng box ng french fries para gawing artwork haha.

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punta abs after. freaky naman dami checkpoints. overnight with ka. aral aral ever. andun si kuya er. ang labo nga niya eh. i didn’t understang a thing he’s saying. tapos sai niya kung ilan taon nako at kung gusto ko na daw ba magpakasal? huh? ang kati ng ulo ko nung gabi nakakahiya! scalp itch attack! dun na kami natulog. nung umaga bfast, tumabi smin si kuya je. hm…i sense something fishy! tinext pa sha na masiba kumain hehe.

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we saw a huge rat sa office! kadiri.

yun lang. uwi nung umaga, took a bath, slept. Zzzzs…

Lord, I leave it all up to You.

i don’t know what it is tonight but something just dawned upon me. i feel a change. i feel something brewing in me that i can’t seem to shut out. i think something’s happened to me. inside. and i know i have to put down my thoughts now before i forget them altogether.

like my future just passed in front of my very eyes. and you know what i saw? i think i saw myself being single and happy and content and successful for the rest of my life. really. i know someday i might want to have a child but i don’t know. or maybe i’m not going to live that long or reach that age when i’m supposed to actually have a family of my own. crazy.

anyway, i think i saw flashes of me being a topshot lawyer, a much revered tv personality, a fashion icon, the girl of every man’s fantasies. a woman cut out to rule the world!

okay. so maybe these are more of delusions rather than life-changing visions. howell.

somebody offered me what seems to be a job, a writing job. but it doesn’t come without strings and apparently i owe a lot to this one who set the employer to contact me and there goes the dilemma. get it? if i don’t take it, i would look bad to R. if i take it, then it’s like being in a fish bowl where all my actions are under indirect scrutiny. and worse, if i take it, mess up with it and drop it, i’m doomed.

so add to my list of delusions above: a much sought after writer, one of the best of her generation.

alright. so maybe my life is a complete blah right now. i don’t have a job. i stink. im fat. and i’ve got these horrid pimples that keep sprouting in my face. i’m awful in school, my ex-boss probably considers me a charity project and i just haven’t got a single clue as to what i ought to do with my.friggin.life. and now i sound like emma corrigan.

sigh. double sigh. maybe i should chill more. i’ve been chilling out for 2 months now for pete’s sake it’s driving me nuts. im obsessed with the pc and tinkering with movies and music and books and i just might lose it sooner rather than later.

tomorrow, an officemate’s comin over and guess what, we’re going to study. yippeedidoo. my life sucks i know. and she’s in some friggin top elitist lawschool and it’s like when i see her, her school’s name is plastered all over her face with blue pompoms and drums on the side cheering her on. our super mega boss secretly envies her as his own kid appeared to be stupid enough not to get in, in more than a single attempt. while i’m stuck in this charity school where the toilet room is pitiful and we do our own, er, timba duties and the library is the size of classroom, a mini one, at that. ah.

i wonder if tomorrow’s going to get any worse. i wonder if it’s gonna lift my mood. i so feel like i’m going to have my period right now.

darn these stupid hormones.

update: my lovely sister just brought me pasalubong! yey!  tacos and perfect pop! sour cream flavored popcorn! life is beautiful!

*spoilers ahead

this is the sophie kinsella ebook which i downloaded last night and finished reading this afternoon. it’s chick lit, very mababaw, but i was amused all throughout. couldn’t put it down. thank God for
ebooks online and file sharing sites. i’ll share that later. the book’s sooo darn funny! i mean i was freaked out with my own laughter, in my own bedroom. i thought the other people in the house heard me and
deemed me outright as nuts. it was in the tradition of bridget jones’s blunders, anyway. medyo copycat nga eh sa tingin ko.

a little intro. emma had a bad day. she just messed up the one deal that could cause her much-desired promotion, drank vodka on her plane ride, seriously believed she would die on that turbulent ride and got a wee bit chatty to a complete stranger whom she thought she would never again see in her entire life.

she then therapeutically spilled all her deepest, darkest, lost-my-virginity-to, and real weight measurement secrets to that one stranger guy who turns out to be, gasp! her supermega-boss. well, a boss whom she will shag thereafter.

well,
come to think of it, it’s both funny and a tearjerker. para kong baliw.
i’d laugh with emma corrigan’s crazy thoughts and hirits then later on
i’d be sniffing because jack harper is such an ass when he revealed ALL her
friggin secrets in british national tv. but i think it’s a bit
exaggerated on emma’s part kasi, pano naman niya nalaman na kilala siya
ng buong panther company, na siya nga yung dinedescribe ni jack ha?
feeling niya sikat siya ganun. hehe. pero ayus lang, natuwa naman ako.

hmm,
lemme see. bakit na naman ako nakarelate kay emma aber? um, kasi reyna
siya ng sablay. mali-mali. eengot-engot, which is somehow like me.
average chic. nothing special. she disappears in a crowd, well, a lot like me. tapos she believes that something great is going to happen to her life,
which i secretly believe about myself, too. i have weight issues pero
not that much, i mean my weight is pretty average naman. a few days
watching hiphop abs will surely do it for me.

everything in her
life sucks. her family adores her cousin kerry, who’s a really mean,
little miss perfect, family-affection-stealer bitch and i hated her the
entire book grr, she’s had 3 jobs in fours years if i’m correct, and
the only thing going for her is a ‘perfect’ boyfriend she convinces
herself that she loves. whew. ok, so the only big difference with her
and my life is that i do not have a boyfriend. and my family adores me.
i do not have an obnoxious cousin like kerry and i’ve only had one job
in 2 years, which i will be going back to soon. yay! okay that’s not
just one difference is it. well, anyway, i hope i can meet one jack
harper in a bumpy, turbulent airplane ride and be swept off my feet.

my
only question is: is jack harper an overyl, lolo-ish, aged man? i mean, the book doesn’t
give a clear cut description of him. his friend, pete, was like
harrison ford, so does that make jake a bit old? eew. wag naman super old sana. but i do love
him. he seems hot, i guess, even for a mature man. jemima and lissy
were also a funny lot, especially jemima! medyo pakialamera/mahadera
nga siya but she just wanted to exact revenge for her friend noh. kung
ako yun, i’d also do it. hanggang sa dulo i still hated jack and he had
the gall to walk out on emma sa dulo? the nerve of that old meanie.
hehe.

so lissy is a fraud lawyer. eh. hmm… lapit na enrollment. bummer.

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kuya’s
ipod update. nalipat ko na season 6&7 ng mac gyver, pati yung feel
young andun na and a lot of my fave movies, hehe. had to delete
macgyver sa pc kasi wala na space. i had to delete american beauty too,
which is a lovely film. i mean if it weren’t for the nudity, sex and
bloody scenes, i’d save it. kaso baka mapanood ng iba eh ma-censor pa
ko. sayang that movie. critically acclaimed ata yun and the movie
deserved it! kevin spacey was just brilliant. pati pretty woman must
go, kasi may sex parts din.

yesterday, ate gave me nice, white,
dangling earrings from cagayan de oro. sweet! there are green heavier
ones for aci and i’m sure sakin din yun mapupunta hekhek.

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new template. new look. new username til i think of a better one.

last
sunday, me and kat met at sunken to discuss intro to law cases. limot
ko na yung iba, did my best to simplify things and i can sense kat’s
boredom with my discussing them. haha. pero i know she’ll make it
through. she may seem tamad and disinterested and all pero she passed
the exam, an hour late at that, so she must have something between her
ears. apparently, those guys playing football in front of us were also
law studs. whatever. they’re not cute sorry. nahiya ako magdiscuss kasi
baka mali yung sinasabi ko. medyo hininaan ko boses ko hehe. tagal ng
photocopy ni kuya dun 10 years! then we went to trinoma. she shopped
for a blouse and i bought bond paper.

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www.scribd.com

www.4shared.com

the
two havens for bookstuff you may want. i know you’ll thank me later for
these sites. too bad the ultimate ebook downloading site www.intexblogger.com seemed to have shut down for good. crossing my fingers it’s just temporary.

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lesson to kids: never ever talk to strangers much less tell them your skankiest secrets! well, okay, if they’re hot and rich and single–i’ll take exceptions.